Schokolade

Disembodied

Walking along my road in darkness, my earphones playing music loud enough so I'm unable to hear my shoes touch to the tarmac, but not so loud that I can't hear the wind disrupting the overhanging branches. The streetlights so sparse that in between them there is almost no light, except the reflection of the previous in the rainwater that is glazing the ground. I'm wearing a coat and a scarf, but the bare skin on my hands and face is prickling in the bitter air.

Timing my strides to the drum beats of the songs, unable to hear my feet making contact, the amber reflections seemingly swirling through my squinting eyes. I start to lose grasp of where I am and what I am. I am so full of adrenaline that walking takes no effort, I feel like I'm floating across the ground; the ground which is spinning and swirling like gold glitter being blown around in water.

The volume of the song is so comfortable that I close my eyes and for a time none of my senses are alerting me to where I am or if I am. I feel like I could be in space. I feel like I am in the song. I feel so at peace and out of body.

It doesn't last for long, but the moment was a euphoria and a relief.

What is it that reminds us we're 'here'?

5 am club

I seem to be a regular attendant and I don't know why.
What the hell am I worrying about?

Before I woke up the subject of my dreams were fairly relevant for once. Nothing dodgy to report. They normally don't make sense, but tonight I simply dreamt about what I was thinking about. A rare event. Deserves to be documented.

December, already?!

I've been pretty busy this past month and a half and haven't really had chance to post or reset the password I'm always forgetting.

I'll sum up what's going on and what I'm happy about;

• I have sent off my UCAS and got four University offers so far! I'm really happy about that
• I'm still driving and I passed my theory test in November, woo!
• Blink-182 are headlining Reading and Leeds!
• Game of Thrones Series 3 has started showing on the tele so I can finally find out what happens
• I went in a limo for the first time for Amy's 18th!
• I finally got a new coat
• I also got a cold :(
• I got the English Language and Psychology awards at sixth form. I'm not bragging (honest!), I'm just happy that someone thinks I'm doing good!
• I had a Big Beef Melt at Subway and it was so tasty! Damn!

What's happening with you guys?

I've changed the blog again - it made my eyes hurt a bit how it was. It looks kinda retro now.